A Morning Surprise

I fall asleep last night after I asked "will we go tomorrow?" and I read "okay let's go on a vacation" in the dawn it woke me up. I was so happy and excited. I really thought he is a very nice guy that I won't ever let go.
I got up as soon as some plans popped up on my mind. I wondered we would do this and that. Oh how kind he was. I am blessed I have him.
Finished with my morning activity, I even did everything faster than usual. A lot of plans run on my head and made me wanted the time would run fast also.
7 a.m. I texted him, if he could see me he would see the sweetest morning smile ever, cause I smiled as bright as the sun this morning, I asked him "Where should we go today?"
one minute, two minutes, three minutes no reply.
awhile after that, after I dressed prettily, a text popped up on my cellphone. from him.
I opened and read it, he said "Sorry we can't go today, I am sick and my mom doesn't permit me"
surprised, confused, speechless, what should I say? what should I do?
I wished it just a joke but nope. He told it was real. He blamed me for everything happened and said he was disappointed with my words last night. He asked me to go with another people, even if with a guy he will permit me. He thought I am not understand him, I don't really love him as I said, I am not serious in this relationship. But all he thought of me was wrong.
I never mean it. I said everything honestly, as what I feel and what I want. I just want a holiday on a vacation or whatever it is. I just want to have fun with him, my only boy.
I don't mind if he tell me from the first time he can't go, whatever the reason is I will understand. I won't be angry, I won't hate him, and we wouldn't go through this part if he told me before.
But all he did is help me stepping on the staircase and push me down when I just need one step to get the top.
You know, it is so painful. It hurt me so much.
I would prefer to never take any step if I knew I will never get there.

Lyric Lee Hi - It's Over (Hangul, Romanization, English Translation)

'Hangul:

하늘에 빛나는 저 많은 별

이제 우린 이별인가요

쉽게 보지 마요 날 그렇게

네게 맘을 준 게 큰 실수였나요

흔히들 들어갈 때와 나올 때

다르다는 의미가 바로 이건가요

그대에게 짐이 됐나요

차라리 내려 놓아요

니 쓸데없는 고집 입만 벌리면 거짓

언제나 니 맘대로 다 멋대로

며칠째 외로이 텅빈 길을 걷지

난 이대로 니 곁을 떠나갈래

후회할거야 넌 땅을 칠 거야

곧 알게 될 거야 너의 잘못을

I never wanna ever see you again

들리 들리 이이이니 내 목소리

It's over, It's over so baby good-bye

들리 들리 이이이니 이 한마디

It's over, It's over so baby good-bye

앞으로 두 번 다시 두 눈 가리고 울 일 없겠지

I said, I said, I said oh oh oh

시험이 끝난 듯 홀가분해

이제와 돌아보니 난 정말 불행했네

푸른 하늘 아래 온종일 가려진

너의 그늘을 벗어나 날 찾아갈래

그대에게 짐이 됐나요

차라리 내려 놓아요

니 쓸데없는 고집 입만 벌리면 거짓

언제나 니 맘대로 다 멋대로

며칠째 외로이 텅빈 길을 걷지

절대로 난 너에게 다시 돌아가지 않아

후회할거야 넌 땅을 칠 거야

곧 알게 될 거야 너의 잘못을

I never wanna ever see you again

들리 들리 이이이니 내 목소리

It's over, It's over so baby good-bye

들리 들리 이이이니 이 한마디

It's over, It's over so baby good-bye

앞으로 두 번 다시 두 눈 가리고 울 일 없겠지

I said, I said, I said over

사랑이 식었다면 남 주기 아깝다고 잡지 말아요 (x2)

들리 들리 이이이니 내 목소리 It's over,

It's over so baby good-bye

들리 들리 이이이니 이 한마디 It's over,

It's over so baby good-bye

하늘에 빛나는 저 많은 별

이제 우린 이별인가요

Romanization:

Haneure bitnaneun jeo manheun byeol
Ije urin ibyeoringayo

Swipge boji mayo nal geureoke
Nege mameul jun ge keun silsuyeonnayo
Heunhideul deureogal ttaewa naol ttae
Dareudaneun uimiga baro igeongayo
Geudaeege jimi dwaennayo
Charari naeryeo nohayo

Ni sseuldeeomneun gojip imman beollimyeon geojit
Eonjena ni mamdaero da meotdaero
Myeochiljjae oeroi teongbin gireul geotji
Nan idaero ni gyeoteul tteonagallae

Huhoehalgeoya neon ttangeul chil geoya
Got alge doel geoya neoui jalmoseul
I never wanna ever see you again

Deulli deulli iiini nae moksori It's over, It's over so baby good-bye

Deulli deulli iiini I hanmadi It's over, It's over so baby good-bye

Apeuro du beon dasi du nun garigo ul il eopgetji

I say, I say, I say, I say it over oh oh oh

Siheomi kkeutnan deut holgabunhae
Ijewa doraboni nan jeongmal bulhaenghaenne
Pureun haneul arae onjongil garyeojin
Neoui geuneureul beoseona nal chajagallae
Geudaeege jimi dwaennayo
Charari naeryeo nohayo

Ni sseuldeeomneun gojip imman beollimyeon geojit
Eonjena ni mamdaero da meotdaero
Myeochiljjae weroi
Teongbin gireul geotji
Jeoldaero nan neoege dasi dol-agaji anha

Huhoehalgeoya neon ttangeul chil geoya
Got alge doel geoya neoui jalmoseul
I never wanna ever see you again

Deulli deulli iiini nae moksori It's over, It's over so baby good-bye

Deulli deulli iiini I hanmadi It's over, It's over so baby good-bye

Apeuro du beon dasi du nun garigo ul il eopgetji

I say, I say, I say, I say it over oh oh oh

Sarangi sigeotdamyeon
Nam jugi akkapdago japji marayo
Sarangi sigeotdamyeon
Nam jugi akkapdago japji marayo

Deulli deulli iiini nae moksori It's over, It's over so baby good-bye

Deulli deulli iiini I hanmadi
It's over, It's over so baby good-bye

Haneure bitnaneun jeo manheun byeol
Ije urin ibyeoringayo

English Translation:

There are many twinkling stars in the sky

Are we breaking up now?

Don’t view me so easily

Was giving you my heart a big mistake?

The common words “what goes in and what comes out are different”

Is this what it means?

Was I baggage to you?

Then just put me down

Your useless stubborn nature, the lies that you tell all the time

It’s always however you want, whatever you want

For several days straight, I’ve been walking on this empty street alone

I want to leave you this way

You will regret it, you will pound the ground

You will realize your mistakes soon

I never wanna ever see you again

Can you hear my voice?

It’s over, it’s over so baby goodbye

Can you hear these words?

It’s over, it’s over so baby goodbye

Now I won’t cover my eyes and cry again

I said, I said, I said oh oh oh

I feel relieved as if my exams are over

Now that I look back, I was really unhappy

I will run away from being hidden under your shadow

Under the blue sky and find myself

Was I baggage to you?

Then just put me down

Your useless stubborn nature, the lies that you tell all the time

It’s always however you want, whatever you want

For several days straight, I’ve been walking on this empty street alone

I won’t ever go back to you

You will regret it, you will pound the ground

You will realize your mistakes soon

I never wanna ever see you again

Can you hear my voice?

It’s over, it’s over so baby goodbye

Can you hear these words?

It’s over, it’s over so baby goodbye

Now I won’t cover my eyes and cry again

I said, I said, I said over

If your love has cooled

Don’t hold onto me because you don’t want to give me up to someone else (x2)

Can you hear my voice?

It’s over, it’s over so baby goodbye

Can you hear these words?

It’s over, it’s over so baby goodbye

There are many twinkling stars in the sky

Are we breaking up now?